why i never want to be a 911 operator

So last night, I watched "The Call" with my only two friends. 

I highly suggest it. 

Not only is it dramatic, it's scary AF and I love drama and scary movies. 

Halle Berry plays a 911 operator who tries to help a girl who has been kidnapped and stuffed in a trunk. 

There's lots of killing in this movie that I did not expect, but nevertheless it pleased me. I'm all for life, but there's nothing like a good surprise stabbing here and there in a film. 

But anyways. 

You're brought into the world of an emergency operator. Whether it's a realistic interpretation or not, it looks like an extremely awful job. You hear the cries of helpless people (or the occasional psychopath killer) as your profession. You literally listen to people's emergency situations and try to help them from who knows how many miles away. You're trying to save someone's life from the bits and pieces of information they give you on the phone. Good luck with that. 

Reason #1 I would not want to be an emergency operator: You need to have composure and patience to help someone during an emergency. I have neither of these which will lead to my immediate firing and perhaps the loss of someone's life. 

Reason #2: I have an extremely addictive personality which then leads me to become very obsessive and possessive... After asking for the person's name, I would think about them all the time. It could even lead to me breaking into police records to find the person's case to see if they made it or not. And then if they didn't make it I would pour over it for years probably and insist it was my fault. Which it probably was. 

Reason #3: If I was in any emergency situation I would be straight up dead. Even after multiple years of self defense training, I still would have no idea what to do in a situation where I am in danger. Therefore, I could not help someone else. Halle had incredible ideas in this movie and I'm like "Yup, never would have thought about that." For that is the ultimate test. And I failed. Awesome. 

Reason #4: Last, but certainly not least, my attention span is the size of a little boy's. Do you know why they don't hire little boys as 911 answer-ers? Because the job takes focus and wisdom and maturity. Take me out of the running. Please.

Don't get me wrong, this movie gave me a newfound appreciation of emergency operators and responders, but at the same time it really just emphasized my shortcomings in life..... 

Maybe I should just stick to being a writer?